Sometimes I Wonder..

So, I've been pondering something...yes, maybe I should have been pondering Organic Chemistry (Partttttt 2!) in these few moments, but even I need to take a break sometimes.

The thing I'm pondering, is this: what if we could take anything we've heard from someone else about us, anything someone else has written about us (whether or not we know it), and if it wasn't true, correct the statement, immediately. Would it make a difference? Similarly, if we could take any situation in which we never actually clarified what we were thinking/feeling, and we could go back and make it more clear, make our intentions known, would it actually change anything?

So these ponderings I'm having, they mostly have to do with some people that used to be a part of my life...I know for a fact that people lie. These people, in particular, I know have lied about me to other people who I cared/care about. And to me, that's simply not okay. But, and here's a big but, would it have really made a difference whether or not those things had been clarified?

I'd love to write in more specifics, because it would make so much more sense. I'm just afraid of naming names/situations/etc., and in turn hurting someone's feelings. Although, the people I would call out I would not necessarily care if I did hurt their feelings, but I do know that they have friends that I am friends with, and that it would probably create some unnecessary tension or awkwardness of some kind. And I'm not a fan of that.

So back to the hypotheticals...if you knew of a situation in which something was said, and it wasn't true, and you could correct it now, what kind of difference would it make? Would it make everything between you and the other person better? I kind of doubt it. I doubt that there is one situation in which something said completely changes your viewpoint of someone else. Whether it was a lie about your feelings about someone, or a lie about what occurred in a blurry time, that wasn't the first time the other person had considered feeling differently about you.

On a somewhat related note, I hate not knowing where I stand with people. It's completely confusing and not at all helpful to my mental state. However, clues I gain from a few sneaky-ish forms is sometimes entertaining, satisfying, or disheartening, however you want to look at it. Whether it's someone calling your relationship with them "dysfunctional and unhealthy" or someone else calling you a "cheating, two-timing slut", you have to wonder what led them to that conclusion...was it really your actions? Their interpretations of your actions? A spiteful ploy to make themselves feel better? Or a combination thereof, of the previous and other factors?

Take-home message from this jumble:

1) Don't spend too much time wondering what could have been if you could have set the facts straight about something. Chances are, in the long run, it wouldn't have mattered.

2) It's very hard to write about hypothetical/broad spectrum situations that are, in fact, very specific.

3) Get your facts straight before you tell someone something. You're not just juicing up a story or adding your own spin to something...you could possibly be damaging a lot more than you think.

Always,

Lex