I am pissed.
You know, it's one thing to say things that aren't true. Yes, that does aggravate the hell out of me and I hate it more than anything else. But something that makes me even more pissed? Someone questioning and ruining my integrity based off of a lie from a spiteful, deceitful, petty person. Sadly, it was someone that I trusted with a lot of my secrets. And now, because I called them out on their bullshit lying to my face and about me and because I ended a friendship with this person, they felt that it was okay to start spreading lies about me. Lies that have hurt a relationship with someone, despite our status with each other, I still care about. And lies that this person now believes to be complete truth. In addition, the lies were spread because, from what I can gather, this person was pissed that I was getting what she never could. Granted, things ended up not working out the way I thought, but I'm okay with that, because they way things are now is better than I could have ever imagined. But seriously? How does it work in your little head that telling someone outrageous lies about me to someone else who you KNOW would take serious offense to it would make you a better person. Would, redeem you in some way. Would raise you up above me in every way imaginable. Which I guess is exactly why you did it. You feel better about yourself knowing that he thinks of you highly and knowing that he will believe every word you say. You feel better about yourself knowing that it makes me feel guilty and angry all at once. You want me to confront you and I know it. You want me to find a reason to fight you. But I won't. I'll fight with my words, with a rant about how upset I am because of lies you've told to people I care about, and how those lies have hurt me. And you know why I think you do it? Because you're a pathetic person. And I don't believe you will ever be truly happy, because the only joy you get is bringing down others.
But hell, what do I know?
I apparently slept with half of campus and didn't know about it.
As always,
Lex
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